it feELs goOd... to abandon watever lil selfish love u attaches onto him... n to juz accept him as a fren.. let there be nO more impractical eXpectations.. nO more disillusions... juz siMpLe hOpes tt he wil live weLL.. n tt he wil juz be tHere 4me occasionally... n tt somehow or rather i was, n im gg to continue to be a part -however small- of his life.. not sure if i hv oredi reached tt stage but i wanna wOrk twds it... =)