i find myself walking in ciRcLes all tis yrs~~~~

walking round n round d same path...
always tinkin tt im walking twds d rite path each time..
wen can i ever bReAk fReE???

identity crisis...
i dun lyk d way im..
i wanna change!
but i dun find myself changing for d betta..

i hv seen hOw my frens ard me hv progressed..
but until now im stil rite here..
at abt d sAmE spot..
of cos there r som lil changes here n there..
but on d whole..
my bad habits r stil here..
my gd habits r gOne..
n....
im stil as lOst as ever..
oh gOsh~
hOw cld i be so stAgnAnt in my liFe??
ic myself degrading u noe..
im sO dAmn pAsSiVe in all d gd things..
so enthu in all d wrOng things..
i mAke others hAte mE..
i mAke mE hate myself..
i mAke myself hAte d wOrld..
i mAke myself hAte liFe..
watever it is..