i hv found my source of motivation! haha~ i dunno how long it will last.. but rite now i hope it will last forever n ever....... i tld zy tt i felt as if i hv a new direction in life.... heh~ it sounds exaggerating but it's trUe! suddenly i felt as if i hv sth to strive for in life... to bcum a better person.. a woRthy person... to bcum a person wOrthy of love.. =)