maybe love needs some fairytale element to flourish... u need to be more innocent.. more naive.. hv some belief in fairytale n hv a child-like heart.. maybe i hv bcum too practical, too realistic.. well, the harsh realities of life does make one come to accept the fact tt fairytales dun exist, isnt it so?

juz finished reading "The Little Prince".. quite a nice book.. helps one to relish the precious thots n mindset of a child.. helps us to see persectives frm an innocent heart.. to discover how as adults, we hv 'lost' ourselves..

"wats truly impt is those tt cannot be seen with the bare eyes"

to love somebody is to fork out time n efforts to be with tt somebody.. n bcos of ur love, tt somebody will bcum someone extraordinary, someone unique, someone who stands out frm the millions of human beings ard u...

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rem i used to love looking at the sky.. love to stand at the window for hrs at nite staring up at the twinkling stars shining up high the dark sky.. rem how i used to appreciate the times wen ic rainbows or fireworks... not tt i dun appreciate dem now, but its juz tt the intensity has fallen for reasons im not really sure of... if u guys rem, i always msg some of u wenever ic sth plesant, juz wanna share my little happiness wif those ard me..

oso rem tt i used to msg ppl alot.. used to appreciate all those msges tt i rcv frm frens.. even a simple msg can make me smile n stay happy for the entire day.. now i dun really do tt liao..

rem how i used to love w/o any form of holding back.. i din mind making any form of sacrifices for the one whom i held so dear at heart - not even at the expense of my studies.. but now i can no longer do the same.. i noe my priorities n responsibilities, esp twds my family..

rem how i used to tink tt ppl who r so damn studious r kinda pathetic cos i felt sorry for dem tt they actually placed more emphasis on academics (sth dead, sth totally unfeeling) dan other stuff lyk frenships, love n kinships... but rite now im oso so unappreciative of frenship, love n kinships... who m i to condemn others?? heh~

rem how i wld go to churches wif frens cos i was so lOsT in my life.. rem how i used to appreciate those lil actions frm my frens - those words n acts of concern tt may seem so insignificant to others, i dO appreciate dem lOadS... tink i hv taken many things for granted now.. not a gd fren anymore..

n the reason for the oLd mE? cos im poOr.. ic myself as someone w/o accomplishments.. someone who hv missed out alot in life.. esp my sec sch days wen i hv turned my back against everyone.. i feel so small n little in the big universe.. tts y i come to appreciate all the little things tt i possess..

den aft tt i come to uni, after i hv finally given up hope loving tt somebody, i thot i hv grown up n i did enjoy a period of peAcE n jOy - happy wif myself, hardworking in my studies, appreciative of my uni frens... but maybe during Y2 Sem2, wen i hv bcum overloaded with work n projects n wen r/ps wif frens get strained, i seem to hv lost myself again.. thot the PA experience will set myself in the right direction.. i did learn sth there but i wished i haven got n lost a 'bf'(in inverted commas cos i din really consider him one ba) at the same time...

ok so much crapz... will try to stop talking abt HIM.. but tink will take some time la.. =)